[Markie]

Okay, so I was talking to a friend of mine last night, really depressed at how unnormal and impulsive I am and how hard of time I have fitting in. My teenage friend suggested I had ADHD (she herself has ADHD and is on Ritalin). I thought it was crazy, but I *was* diagnosed with ADHD as a kid (never put on drugs because my parents didn't believe in it, instead they home schooled me for two years and quit letting me eat sugar). But most people outgrow it by their late teenage years.

Still, I was tempted to research it. I found one guy whose story sounded *JUST* like me, including some odd things like a weird reaction to caffiene. He says he's on Ritalin (a treatment normally reserved for kids because of the risks to adults of taking stimulant drugs, but I'm in good shape) and it helped him to focus and be less impulsive a lot.

The next thing is, I can't afford to see a psychiatrist or whatever about this, so what I'm hearing online is that low-doses of caffiene (high doses make it worse and I know I can't handle caffiene) combined with an herb called ginko have a similar effect to Ritalin. I'm tempted to try it and see if it helps me to focus and have some semblence of normality.

What do y'all think?