[Duckie]

I agree with most of what everyone said, except I think you should be honest with the Pastor in letting him know you were hurt. Maybe he didn't think about that part of the situation and I think he should be made aware of how much it really affected you.

You don't need to be whinny as you put it, but I don't think putting it accross in a positive manner would be wrong. Maybe God is using you to bring to his attention that he needs to be more open to letting others help and not to "covet" their good ideas!!!

Quiet your anger and hurt (this is Satan) and listen to God and let him lead you in your role in this matter. If you truly trust God, he will bring you both through this event better for having participated. I truly believe that everything, even in it's smallest measure, is part of God's design. Just because we sometimes can't see it, doesn't mean he's not hard at work!!!!

This may all be about Pastor and not you. You may just be the tool. Wouldn't that be wonderful to think that God would use you to that end? Wow what an honor!!!! Don't let anothers' bad actions cripple your calling to clown for God!!!! After all God is the one that put the clown in you!!!!!!! You go girlfriend!!!!!