[Periwinkle]

Everyone has supported you so well on this forum. Good job everyone.
Please don't lose what God has given you to clown. Maybe just not your time yet at church. Keep doing what your doing in the clowning world. Practice your routine what you might do at church. Keep a smile on your face.
If you feel this strongly, you probably should talk to him. He won't know unless you talk to him privately, or even with hubby there.
There could be a very good reason you may not even know yet.

I'm thinking in time your pastor will probably not have time in the future to clown. He will probably be busy with other church business and other people, and you will be able to step up to the plate.

Keep reading your bible to help you get through the hurt, I know what you mean when junk happens at my church. No church or pastor is perfect and neither are we. We are all human.

I would not e-mail him anything personal, you don't know who reads it.
But we are here to serve God. Don;t forget going to the nursing homes and cheering up some of those folks. What about some of the shut inns at your church. You could start doing visits with some of the church members. But remember, I wouldn't speak of the situation about your minister. Just let it go, and when God leads you to speak to him, do it in a Godly matter.
"A day without laughter, is a day wasted"